a little about myself

Im a thinker... but not in the smart sense..
Dont get me wrong.. i am in no sense of the word stupid.

There are days when i feel i am on top of the world..
And days when i feel the world is on top of me.
But hey who doesnt have days like that? its life right?

Im generally a happy person.
Well a bit more chill than happy.
I just kind of take life as it goes...
Different things come my way.
But i grit my teeth and handle things the best way i know how.

Im a fighter.
I dont mean the type to run up on you and hit you in the face for no reason.
I mean the type who sees something worth his attention who seeks it.
But i wont hessitate to protect those close to me any way i can if need be.
I dont give up... failure isnt an option...
And for anyone who thinks that something is holding them back from their dreams...
Guess what?
The only thing holding you back. Is you.

I love.
Ive only done so twice...
But i wouldnt trade moments for anything.
Though both times brought me to my knees asking God
Why?
Its still worth it.
I wouldnt trade the laughs and the fights
The mistakes and the heartache
The hugs and the kisses.
For anything in the world.
Because i found that by loving another.
I discovered more about myself.
The end result is what you see now.
But, im still growing.

That being said.

I keep to myself.
People say it will be the death of me
Simply because i tend to put the needs of others before my own.
Its not that i dont value myself.
Its more that i value those close to me.
There arent many..
But i wouldnt trade quality for quantity.
In short, id rather you call me with any concerns
Rather than you spend your time worrying about me.
I do tend to run away the people who say they " love " me the most
For some reason thats all i know to do when shown " love "

Im real.
I wont sugar coat anything for anyone.
Yes the truth hurts.
But not as much as realizing that you've been lied to
Id rather tell someone the truth
and have them right then and there decide whether they would like to continue talking to me or not.
Theres no point in being fake.
Life is about discovering who you are.
Not attempting to live as someone your not.

I believe your eyes truly are the window to your soul.
For some reason the lighter the eye color the easier to read. Or so ive found to be true.
So much can be told about a person by just looking.
That being said.
What do you see when you look into mine?






that was just a little about me.
more to come maybe.

Busy

Been so busy chillin wit the homies
Clubs
Parties
Ect ect
and NOW i got my hours cut at work =/
right before christmas?! that shit is lame...
its like day six or some shit... im doin a little better though haha
Club was chill... Char can dance... but i think i handled that well.....
too bad the night ended wit the homie almost dying haha.... owell walking around at 3 am in the cold helped a bit i guess...
whats next?

Crazy

Its so crazy how much little things done over, and over again can get to me?
Ignorance is just so difficult for me to stand.... but school, especially public school, seems to be full of it... (especially among the black community) then work... which is chill... but after home to more bs? i think im goin crazy!.. nah im jus excited for christmas... man i miss my girl....but eh i hope she has fun in Nigeria... yeeeahhhhh im jus stressin for no reason

Moon Light...

Does wonders to a person... it makes you stop and think...imagine even... especially on a clear now... mix in your favorite girl an a little marvin gaye and let everything bad flow an fly away.. im on cloud 9....


ON A MORE SERIOUS NOTE
fuck pizzafuck folding pizza boxes
fuck people who tell you to work THEN text in your face
little caeser's for the lose.

Its good to want

Hope Santa has room in his bag